My rant because I can’t do it anywhere else without people fucking saying something

I’m tired of not having a say in what I have, who I talk to, what I own and what the fuck I do. I’m tired of being put down, I am not stupid, dumb or retarded. I’m tired of working my ass off for something that says “Oh well” when I’m hurt. I’m tired of never feeling like I’m doing the right thing and always walking on egg shells. I’m tired of constantly worrying and comparing myself to these other fucking girls and I’m tired of not being enough. I’m tired. I’m hurt and I’ve cried so much tonight. Perfect for this to happen. I spoke to soon thinking I was doing so good today.. Perfect that this is right before my fucking birthday. You’re not forgiven and everything is not okay. Good night